A Motivational Letter

To anyone that's reading this :

Sometimes I wonder.

What if you suddenly died tomorrow?

I know this is rather odd to bring up, considering what the actual title says - but hear me out :

Do you think about the day when you will die, or when someone close to you is gone forever?

Were you able to say everything that you wanted?

Would you regret anything?

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Regarding the people you love, have you ever noticed that you pick up little habits and phrases from the people you love or care about?

From this perspective, it is no wonder that pain is normally felt when people leave us behind. When you think about it, we become a reflection of the people that we care about and those personality traits stick with us - even if the people don’t.

I got into psychology because of the psychologist I was nearly named after, as well as the multiple personality tests that probably made up the latter half of my time in middle school.

I draw checkmarks the way my Chinese teacher does.

I play videogames (especially Animal Crossing) - because that’s what my parents and brother enjoy.

There are movies and books that I liked because someone I cared about liked them first (ex - Stephen King). Plus, it did give another topic for small talk to talk about with them.

I sometimes colored my words purple on documents because that is my old school best friend's favorite color.

I continued to take an interest in writing and poetry - because that’s I know that's what my first grade teacher would have wanted me to do : follow my passions.

Sometimes I observe the activities that the people I’m interested in would do, because that’s what one of my social media-obsessed friends would do.

Technically, I am just a product of those who have touched my life, and the same probably goes for everyone.

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And even when we have loved ones, we may feel afraid to reach out due to fear of burdening them with more problems.

Now, I may not know what you’re going through - but there are times when you’re carrying too much on yourself.

Sorrow and suffering are meant to be part of our lives, and everyone’s sorrows are different from each other. As a result, it will be very easy for yourself to feel misunderstood.

All while there is solitude in sorrow, there are more benefits in conquering it than just lying on the ground and waiting for the earth to reclaim you.

However, it will be hard. Nobody overcomes their journey without thinking of the pain they’re going through, or getting scared of it. Basically, there’s only so much a person can take before they break.

I don’t think you should carry the burden alone. If it’s too much for you, always feel free to rely on me. And I'll try my best to see what I can do to help. There is no need for you to confront things alone.

More importantly, there’s also no shame in needing help from others - for it only means you have the humility and the intelligence to ask for it.

So you could say that I’m proud of you. And it will always stay that way.

Additionally, this isn’t the end of your fight.

You still have something to survive for, don’t you?

Maybe family, a friend, or an anime body pillow (if that's what you're into), but that’s still something waiting for you (even if it’s inanimate).

Just don’t keep them waiting.

There’s a better life for you out there.

You just have to hold on until then.

You’ve got this.

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Then again, isn’t that easier said than done?

However, change can only begin with yourself. You need to make it happen.

Sure, it also depends on the environment and people you surround yourself with.

But, the first step to get better is to know how to love yourself.

Which is often the hardest and longest part.

You just need to know how to pick yourself up over and over again even when you feel like you're losing everything in your life.

It's harder than any AP exam you will have to take.

It's just hard in general.

Regardless, that’s how you become stronger.

You just need to try.

I know I’m a hypocrite for saying that, so let’s both try our hardest and maybe - we’ll achieve something close to what we want. I don’t need any regrets. Even if we have our doubts, I still want to believe.

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No matter what happens, I want you to be content with yourself.

I want you to be happy as much as possible.

Also, I want you to love yourself.

Be proud of what you have achieved.

Tell yourself how attractive you are already, and how lucky the world is to have you in it.

Just continue to move forward. Perhaps you will be given something you’ll really need someday.

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Now that this has all been said - here's a random photo of an owl just because.