Random Thoughts (I)

All of us will have to die at some point.

Some earlier than others.

Every passing second, there are two individuals somewhere that choose to leave the world forever.

Sometimes, they go out in a peaceful way.

Other times, they aren't as fortunate.

Death, for some individuals can be an unsettling topic to talk about. After all, this is the end of a life we are discussing here.

But to some, they may even view death as a source of peace that follows their lives. Sometimes, it can be fun to contemplate what lies ahead after death.

However, we all miss out on a lot if we die too early. Sometimes, it's hard to remember that life should be cherished - as we can only have one to experience everything.

To me, the meaning of life is to be whoever we want to be, and whatever we see in ourselves will be the only thing we have. There isn't a universal answer depicting the solution to the often-asked question, but some believed that there is only the meaning that we give to our life - like a collection of poems for every individual.

Life, after all is never itself without its endless pile of problems and chapters of exciting and heartwarming moments. It is a rollercoaster of emotions, and there is no moment that is identical to the other.

And death is the moment when something ceases to be alive. Technically speaking, the meaning of life can be intertwined with the meaning of death. It is because we die that our lives have meaning in the first place.

Nobody is friendless. I have had a hypothesis that we all have someone will be completely understand us and be there for us. And I am glad to know that this was proven correct.

They may notice where you avert your eyes. They notice if you are confident, or just trying your best to put up a facade. They notice if you are clenching your jaw or just faking a smile. Sometimes, they can immediately tell. And they will always care for you, no matter what.

You may know him or her already.

The best thing in life is finding someone who is aware of all your flaws, mistakes, and weaknesses - and still thinks you're completely amazing. And they will see you for the beautiful person that you are, and be willing to stay by your side even after death drives you apart.

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And on the other side of the spectrum, there is the concept of birth.

Every second, as two people leave the world, four are introduced to it.

This is always a cause to celebrate.

Yesterday, I remember receiving a sudden notification on my phone while doing homework.

I remember reaching for the phone and turning it on.

And I remember nearly dropping it in shock from the new message on the screen.

And experiencing a level of cloud nine that I haven't felt in a while.

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My homeroom teacher's baby is okay.

She is strong, healthy, and beautiful without a doubt.

And she shares her name with me, of all people.

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Words couldn't even describe how I was feeling at that moment, as my brain short-circuited.

I felt joy in the fact that the baby was okay.

I felt excitement on spreading the news to people (especially since he let me know in advance).

And I felt disbelief in the name choice. (In all honesty, he did mention my name as being one of the sixty-four names he considered for the baby way back in December. It still shocked me that he chose my name).

I spent a few minutes trying to type out a message.

And it resulted in a few rather flustered messages, wishing her well and congratulating the family on the birth of their daughter.

And he responded with messages pertaining to how he and his wife liked the meaning of my name ("messenger of God"), with additional thanks for being a "special student" in their lives - which I still had a hard time processing (especially the latter part).

Regardless, I would like to address the life of one who was born recently :

Welcome to the world, Arella Marr!

And Happy Birthday!

I can never begin to describe my feelings the moment I heard of your arrival. I'm still in shock that this all just happened. Despite all this, I know that I'm excited to meet you in the future!

Your arrival is a great cause for celebration for your proud family, and for the rest of us as well. It is an absolute honor to be your namesake, and I promise to try to be the best role model I can for you. I wish you a long, healthy, and happy life, filled with many opportunities to learn, people to love, and dreams to fulfill.

- Arella Ng

Edit : I was able to interact and hold her for a while a few months after writing this. She wouldn't stop sucking on my watch and gave me a love bite on my wrist. To put it lightly, it was amazing.